Actress and Fox News contributor Stacey Dash has written a new memoir called There Goes My Social Life in which the 49-year-old opens up about things in her past nobody knew about her.
Speaking of being a survivor of both drug abuse and sexual molestation, Dash told People magazine in an interview, “Sometimes my past is extraordinarily heavy. That’s when I scream and cry until I feel like I can breathe again.”
She said she was only 4 years old when she was sexually abused by a 16-year-old relative, and when she turned 16 she began what would become a decades-long addiction to cocaine.
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“I couldn’t find happiness,” Dash said. “It got to a point where I didn’t even want to live anymore. The voice in my head was saying, ‘There’s nothing here for you.’”
Dash said being sexually abused as a child was not the only abuse she would endure. When she was 20, she found herself in a physically abusive relationship.
“He would punch me in my body, my legs, my chest, anything that could be covered,” she said. “But part of me felt like I deserved it because what I was coming from was no better. I didn’t have an identity. That’s why I fight for women and people in the inner cities today. I want them to know it will get better.”
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At age 24, while in a relationship with musician Christopher Williams, Dash got pregnant and thought long and hard about getting an abortion due to her continuing addiction to cocaine.
“When I got pregnant, I was doing a lot of drugs and I didn’t want to live. I wanted to die. I was going to have an abortion. I was crying and I said to God, ‘Please tell me what to do.’ And God told me, ‘Keep your son.’ I ripped the IV out of my arm and I said, ‘I’m keeping my son.’”
As for her views on welfare and the black community, which have drawn the ire of many in the black community, Dash goes into detail on why she believes what she believes, saying it’s based on the culture in which she grew up.
“When you get stuff for free, you have no self-worth. When you have no self-worth, you become depressed, addicted and either abused or an abuser. This is what perpetuates the cycle of violence in inner cities,” Dash said. “We don’t need free stuff. We need opportunities.”
h/t: MadameNoire
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